It’s Been A Long Time

Dearest internet,

It’s been a long time. Lots of things have happened and now I have depression.

Here’s to the future –




Hello everyone!


I’ve been learning a lot of things these past few weeks.

I’ve been learning how beautiful life can be actually 🙂 and I’m learning how to love myself for all that I am.

And when I talk about love, I mean loving what God has created. 

Our own lovely selves 🙂

One thing I thought I would pass on, is this website:

It has been incredibly helpful for me and I hope it will be for you as well!

Now I have to check and get started on my school work 😉


Flickering Candles ❤

Adult Life

Hey everyone,

So I’ve been trying to find work and currently working on school courses.

I haven’t had any real catches yet (DQ called, but nothing happened with that unfortunately) but I’m still looking, and I’m really hoping I can get a job at McDonalds. I’ll have to keep checking and my aunt mentioned a place that I will see if I can apply for.

I’m getting better at doing my school work and that’s good too.

Now, I just need to work on cleaning more at home and praying more. This should be fun! (no sarcasm)

I’m getting better at learning how to take care of myself and everything is going pretty well.

It’s still difficult though. But with everything there is something to learn so I’m just hoping there’s a good reason for all of this (I’m hoping that there’s a reason I haven’t been called in to work anywhere yet, unless it’s because I haven’t done enough to solidify an interview. In which case, that’s my problem and I need to search for work more.)

You know, everything is okay because I’m slowly getting out of my teenager mindset and moving into my adult mindset. Which is very helpful actually and I like it, so it’s all good 🙂

Another update is that this Friday is the first day of the youth conference in Victoria! Whoo! That’s going to be really exciting 🙂

I really need to find work though, so pray for me! And if it is God’s Will, I’ll get something 🙂 but in the meantime, studying, praying and learning.


So I think that’s all for now. I’m aware I haven’t been on in a long time and my apologies for that. I’ve just been taking time for myself to figure things out. Everything’s good!


Cheerio and peace to all 🙂 ,

Flickering Candles.

Keep going, my brother :)

If you love someone,  you want them to be happy.

You want them to be free.


I’ve been learning a lot of new things lately.

Things like how to love God and how to let go. Learning about how to be patient.


I’ll share something personal.

I’m learning how to love God. How to find Him. For myself and no one else.

I’m learning how to be.

I’m learning that you need to ask for help. For anything.

I’m learning how to be patient and loving.


With love,


The 12 Signs of Love

1) Praise
2) Gratitude
3) Forgiveness
4) Acceptance
5) Overlook each others faults
6) See the good in all people
7) Listen
8) Service
9) The ability to receive love
10) Self-less love (unconditional love)
11) Happiness
12) Never cause unhappiness

One Way To End Backbiting


So here is a way that we can stop idle talk of others:

“If, however, a person setteth about speaking well of another, opening his lips to praise
another, he will touch an answering chord in his hearers and they will be stirred up by
the breathings of God. Their hearts and souls will rejoice to know that, God be thanked,
here is a soul in the Faith who is a focus of human perfections, a very embodiment of
the bounties of the Lord, one whose tongue is eloquent, and whose face shineth, in
whatever gathering he may be, one who hath victory upon his brow, and who is a being
sustained by the sweet savours of God. Now which is the better way? I swear this by the beauty of the Lord:
whensoever I hear good of the friends, my heart filleth up with joy; but whensoever I find even a hint that
they are on bad terms one with another, I am overwhelmed by grief. Such is the condition of ‘Abdu’l-Bahá.”

(Selections from the Writings of ‘Abdu’l-Bahá, Page: 230)


It is related that His Holiness Christ—May my life be a sacrifice to Him!—one day, accompanied by His apostles, passed by the corpse of a dead animal. One of them said: ‘How putrid has this animal become!’ The other exclaimed: ‘How it is deformed!’ A third cried out: ‘What a stench! How cadaverous looking!’ but His Holiness Christ said: “Look at its teeth! how white they are!’ Consider, that He did not look at all at the defects of that animal; nay, rather, He searched well until He found the beautiful white teeth. He observed only the whiteness of the teeth and overlooked entirely the deformity of the body, the dissolution of its organs and the bad odour. This is the attribute of the children of the Kingdom. This is the conduct and the manner of the real Bahá’ís. I hope that all the believers will attain to this lofty station.

(‘Abdu’l-Bahá, Star of the West, Vol. IV, No. 11, p. 192)

True Freedom

Yosi Mesbah & Friends:


True Freedom, is obedience to God

Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Glory, is contentment with His Will
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Justice, is to see with searching eyes
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Religion, is to follow in His Way
Raise me up, and let me be free

True Courage, is promotion of His Word
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Power, is steadfastness in His Love
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Love, is to burn with His Desire
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Faith, is abundance of our deeds
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Safety, is renouncing all the world
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Wisdom, is the dread of His Decree
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Knowledge, is to know Bahá’u’lláh
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Freedom, is obedience to God
Raise me up, and let me be Free

(inspred by Bahá’u’lláh’s ‘Words of Wisdom’)


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Life As We Know It

Hey everyone,

So I made a poem of sorts.

I hope you enjoy it.

Although, I feel as if it would be more impressive if it was presented at a poetry slam.

Anyway, enjoy 🙂

: It’s because when you get wrapped up in yourself that you start to complain
about unseen monsters and you lose the ability to see what is right in front of you.

When we serve others, that’s when we remember to forget ourselves.

I hadn’t realized how much technology had an influence on my life until I stopped paying
so much attention to what the tv was saying,

when I stopped paying attention to the million
different possibilities of wasting my time on things that don’t matter.

When I stopped listening to that voice inside that never seemed to stay quiet.

Because insomnia is caused by our racing thoughts of worries and fears, of things that we wished
that we had done and things that we had wished we hadn’t,

because of the steeped tea in my blood.

When I stopped blaming others for my anger,

I fixed my problems.

Because when I started paying attention to what I really wanted and stopped paying attention to what
my peers and the media said I wanted, when I stopped paying attention to what my family said I wanted, that’s when I became free.

And it’s now that I wonder, how I could have been asleep for so long, it’s now that I realize that I thought I was awake.

Because now that I’m thinking for myself, I realize it’s not really about myself.

Because I wonder why, if we always have access to this gift that we have been freely given, this gift laced with kindness and honesty, of compassion and forgiveness, of love and hope, and every good thing you can think of, this gift that I believe will cure us of our ills that we have created, that I wonder why we still choose to sleep.

Why we ignore that good voice inside of us, why we’ve been taught to crack easily under the slightest bit of pressure, why we are so scared of change
that we don’t even question things that have been apparently ok for centuries just because they haven’t physically killed us yet – I wonder why we have encouraged each other
to become less than what we are and meant to be, I wonder why we choose to sink down when we could swim.

And you may not like me for saying this, you may not like me, but I think it’s because we’ve stopped looking for ways
to prevent diseases and instead try to fix the results. :

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Thank you!

Please let me know what you think.


Flickering Candles