Adult Life

Hey everyone,

So I’ve been trying to find work and currently working on school courses.

I haven’t had any real catches yet (DQ called, but nothing happened with that unfortunately) but I’m still looking, and I’m really hoping I can get a job at McDonalds. I’ll have to keep checking and my aunt mentioned a place that I will see if I can apply for.

I’m getting better at doing my school work and that’s good too.

Now, I just need to work on cleaning more at home and praying more. This should be fun! (no sarcasm)

I’m getting better at learning how to take care of myself and everything is going pretty well.

It’s still difficult though. But with everything there is something to learn so I’m just hoping there’s a good reason for all of this (I’m hoping that there’s a reason I haven’t been called in to work anywhere yet, unless it’s because I haven’t done enough to solidify an interview. In which case, that’s my problem and I need to search for work more.)

You know, everything is okay because I’m slowly getting out of my teenager mindset and moving into my adult mindset. Which is very helpful actually and I like it, so it’s all good 🙂

Another update is that this Friday is the first day of the youth conference in Victoria! Whoo! That’s going to be really exciting 🙂

I really need to find work though, so pray for me! And if it is God’s Will, I’ll get something 🙂 but in the meantime, studying, praying and learning.


So I think that’s all for now. I’m aware I haven’t been on in a long time and my apologies for that. I’ve just been taking time for myself to figure things out. Everything’s good!


Cheerio and peace to all 🙂 ,

Flickering Candles.


One Way To End Backbiting


So here is a way that we can stop idle talk of others:

“If, however, a person setteth about speaking well of another, opening his lips to praise
another, he will touch an answering chord in his hearers and they will be stirred up by
the breathings of God. Their hearts and souls will rejoice to know that, God be thanked,
here is a soul in the Faith who is a focus of human perfections, a very embodiment of
the bounties of the Lord, one whose tongue is eloquent, and whose face shineth, in
whatever gathering he may be, one who hath victory upon his brow, and who is a being
sustained by the sweet savours of God. Now which is the better way? I swear this by the beauty of the Lord:
whensoever I hear good of the friends, my heart filleth up with joy; but whensoever I find even a hint that
they are on bad terms one with another, I am overwhelmed by grief. Such is the condition of ‘Abdu’l-Bahá.”

(Selections from the Writings of ‘Abdu’l-Bahá, Page: 230)


It is related that His Holiness Christ—May my life be a sacrifice to Him!—one day, accompanied by His apostles, passed by the corpse of a dead animal. One of them said: ‘How putrid has this animal become!’ The other exclaimed: ‘How it is deformed!’ A third cried out: ‘What a stench! How cadaverous looking!’ but His Holiness Christ said: “Look at its teeth! how white they are!’ Consider, that He did not look at all at the defects of that animal; nay, rather, He searched well until He found the beautiful white teeth. He observed only the whiteness of the teeth and overlooked entirely the deformity of the body, the dissolution of its organs and the bad odour. This is the attribute of the children of the Kingdom. This is the conduct and the manner of the real Bahá’ís. I hope that all the believers will attain to this lofty station.

(‘Abdu’l-Bahá, Star of the West, Vol. IV, No. 11, p. 192)

True Freedom

Yosi Mesbah & Friends:


True Freedom, is obedience to God

Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Glory, is contentment with His Will
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Justice, is to see with searching eyes
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Religion, is to follow in His Way
Raise me up, and let me be free

True Courage, is promotion of His Word
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Power, is steadfastness in His Love
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Love, is to burn with His Desire
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Faith, is abundance of our deeds
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Safety, is renouncing all the world
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Wisdom, is the dread of His Decree
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Knowledge, is to know Bahá’u’lláh
Raise me up, and let me be Free

True Freedom, is obedience to God
Raise me up, and let me be Free

(inspred by Bahá’u’lláh’s ‘Words of Wisdom’)


Found here under Yosi Mesbah & Friends:

Life As We Know It

Hey everyone,

So I made a poem of sorts.

I hope you enjoy it.

Although, I feel as if it would be more impressive if it was presented at a poetry slam.

Anyway, enjoy 🙂

: It’s because when you get wrapped up in yourself that you start to complain
about unseen monsters and you lose the ability to see what is right in front of you.

When we serve others, that’s when we remember to forget ourselves.

I hadn’t realized how much technology had an influence on my life until I stopped paying
so much attention to what the tv was saying,

when I stopped paying attention to the million
different possibilities of wasting my time on things that don’t matter.

When I stopped listening to that voice inside that never seemed to stay quiet.

Because insomnia is caused by our racing thoughts of worries and fears, of things that we wished
that we had done and things that we had wished we hadn’t,

because of the steeped tea in my blood.

When I stopped blaming others for my anger,

I fixed my problems.

Because when I started paying attention to what I really wanted and stopped paying attention to what
my peers and the media said I wanted, when I stopped paying attention to what my family said I wanted, that’s when I became free.

And it’s now that I wonder, how I could have been asleep for so long, it’s now that I realize that I thought I was awake.

Because now that I’m thinking for myself, I realize it’s not really about myself.

Because I wonder why, if we always have access to this gift that we have been freely given, this gift laced with kindness and honesty, of compassion and forgiveness, of love and hope, and every good thing you can think of, this gift that I believe will cure us of our ills that we have created, that I wonder why we still choose to sleep.

Why we ignore that good voice inside of us, why we’ve been taught to crack easily under the slightest bit of pressure, why we are so scared of change
that we don’t even question things that have been apparently ok for centuries just because they haven’t physically killed us yet – I wonder why we have encouraged each other
to become less than what we are and meant to be, I wonder why we choose to sink down when we could swim.

And you may not like me for saying this, you may not like me, but I think it’s because we’ve stopped looking for ways
to prevent diseases and instead try to fix the results. :

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Flickering Candles

The Mystery of Sacrifice

Hey everyone,
So look what I found…. there’s a link at the bottom if you would prefer to go to the webpage or you can read it in this message.
Published Source: 

 The Promulgation of Universal Peace

November 29, 1912
Talk at Home of Mr. and Mrs. Edward B. Kinney
780 West End Avenue, New York
Notes by Esther Foster

133.1 This evening I wish to speak to you concerning the mystery of sacrifice. There are two kinds of sacrifice: the physical and the spiritual. The explanation made by the churches concerning this subject is, in reality, superstition. For instance, it is recorded in the Gospel that Christ said, “I am the living bread which came down from heaven: if any man eat of this bread, he shall live for ever.” He also said, “This [wine] is my blood … which is shed for many for the remission of sins.” These verses have been interpreted by the churches in such a superstitious way that it is impossible for human reason to understand or accept the explanation.

133.2 They say that Adam disobeyed the command of God and partook of the fruit of the forbidden tree, thereby committing a sin which was transmitted as a heritage to His posterity. They teach that because of Adam’s sin all His descendants have, likewise, committed transgression and have become responsible through inheritance; that, consequently, all mankind deserves punishment and must make retribution; and that God sent forth His Son as a sacrifice in order that man might be forgiven and the human race delivered from the consequences of Adam’s transgression.

133.3 We wish to consider these statements from the standpoint of reason. Could we conceive of the Divinity, Who is Justice itself, inflicting punishment upon the posterity of Adam for Adam’s own sin and disobedience? Even if we should see a governor, an earthly ruler punishing a son for the wrongdoing of his father, we would look upon that ruler as an unjust man. Granted the father committed a wrong, what was the wrong committed by the son? There is no connection between the two. Adam’s sin was not the sin of His posterity, especially as Adam is a thousand generations back of the man today. If the father of a thousand generations committed a sin, is it just to demand that the present generation should suffer the consequences thereof?

133.4 There are other questions and evidences to be considered. Abraham was a Manifestation of God and a descendant of Adam; likewise, Ishmael, Isaac, Jeremiah and the whole line of prophets including David, Solomon and Aaron were among His posterity. Were all these holy men condemned to a realm of punishment because of a deed committed by the first father, because of a mistake said to have been made by their mutual and remotest ancestor Adam? The explanation is made that when Christ came and sacrificed Himself, all the line of holy Prophets who preceded Him became free from sin and punishment. Even a child could not justly make such an assertion. These interpretations and statements are due to a misunderstanding of the meanings of the Bible.

133.5 In order to understand the reality of sacrifice let us consider the crucifixion and death of Jesus Christ. It is true that He sacrificed Himself for our sake. What is the meaning of this? When Christ appeared, He knew that He must proclaim Himself in opposition to all the nations and peoples of the earth. He knew that mankind would arise against Him and inflict upon Him all manner of tribulations. There is no doubt that one who put forth such a claim as Christ announced would arouse the hostility of the world and be subjected to personal abuse. He realized that His blood would be shed and His body rent by violence. Notwithstanding His knowledge of what would befall Him, He arose to proclaim His message, suffered all tribulation and hardships from the people and finally offered His life as a sacrifice in order to illumine humanity — gave His blood in order to guide the world of mankind. He accepted every calamity and suffering in order to guide men to the truth. Had He desired to save His own life, and were He without wish to offer Himself in sacrifice, He would not have been able to guide a single soul. There was no doubt that His blessed blood would be shed and His body broken. Nevertheless, that Holy Soul accepted calamity and death in His love for mankind. This is one of the meanings of sacrifice.

133.6 As to the second meaning: He said, “I am the living bread which came down from heaven.” It was not the body of Christ which came from heaven. His body came from the womb of Mary, but the Christly perfections descended from heaven; the reality of Christ came down from heaven. The Spirit of Christ and not the body descended from heaven. The body of Christ was but human. There could be no question that the physical body was born from the womb of Mary. But the reality of Christ, the Spirit of Christ, the perfections of Christ all came from heaven. Consequently, by saying He was the bread which came from heaven He meant that the perfections which He showed forth were divine perfections, that the blessings within Him were heavenly gifts and bestowals, that His light was the light of Reality. He said, “If any man eat of this bread, he shall live for ever.” That is to say, whosoever assimilates these divine perfections which are within me will never die; whosoever has a share and partakes of these heavenly bounties I embody will find eternal life; he who takes unto himself these divine lights shall find everlasting life. How manifest the meaning is! How evident! For the soul which acquires divine perfections and seeks heavenly illumination from the teachings of Christ will undoubtedly live eternally. This is also one of the mysteries of sacrifice.

133.7 In reality, Abraham sacrificed Himself, for He brought heavenly teachings to the world and conferred heavenly food upon mankind.

133.8 As to the third meaning of sacrifice, it is this: If you plant a seed in the ground, a tree will become manifest from that seed. The seed sacrifices itself to the tree that will come from it. The seed is outwardly lost, destroyed; but the same seed which is sacrificed will be absorbed and embodied in the tree, its blossoms, fruit and branches. If the identity of that seed had not been sacrificed to the tree which became manifest from it, no branches, blossoms or fruits would have been forthcoming. Christ outwardly disappeared. His personal identity became hidden from the eyes, even as the identity of the seed disappeared; but the bounties, divine qualities and perfections of Christ became manifest in the Christian community which Christ founded through sacrificing Himself. When you look at the tree, you will realize that the perfections, blessings, properties and beauty of the seed have become manifest in the branches, twigs, blossoms and fruit; consequently, the seed has sacrificed itself to the tree. Had it not done so, the tree would not have come into existence. Christ, like unto the seed, sacrificed Himself for the tree of Christianity. Therefore, His perfections, bounties, favors, lights and graces became manifest in the Christian community, for the coming of which He sacrificed Himself.

133.9 As to the fourth significance of sacrifice: It is the principle that a reality sacrifices its own characteristics. Man must sever himself from the influences of the world of matter, from the world of nature and its laws; for the material world is the world of corruption and death. It is the world of evil and darkness, of animalism and ferocity, bloodthirstiness, ambition and avarice, of self-worship, egotism and passion; it is the world of nature. Man must strip himself of all these imperfections, must sacrifice these tendencies which are peculiar to the outer and material world of existence.

133.10 On the other hand, man must acquire heavenly qualities and attain divine attributes. He must become the image and likeness of God. He must seek the bounty of the eternal, become the manifestor of the love of God, the light of guidance, the tree of life and the depository of the bounties of God. That is to say, man must sacrifice the qualities and attributes of the world of nature for the qualities and attributes of the world of God. For instance, consider the substance we call iron. Observe its qualities; it is solid, black, cold. These are the characteristics of iron. When the same iron absorbs heat from the fire, it sacrifices its attribute of solidity for the attribute of fluidity. It sacrifices its attribute of darkness for the attribute of light, which is a quality of the fire. It sacrifices its attribute of coldness to the quality of heat which the fire possesses so that in the iron there remains no solidity, darkness or cold. It becomes illumined and transformed, having sacrificed its qualities to the qualities and attributes of the fire.

133.11 Likewise, man, when separated and severed from the attributes of the world of nature, sacrifices the qualities and exigencies of that mortal realm and manifests the perfections of the Kingdom, just as the qualities of the iron disappeared and the qualities of the fire appeared in their place.

133.12 Every man trained through the teachings of God and illumined by the light of His guidance, who becomes a believer in God and His signs and is enkindled with the fire of the love of God, sacrifices the imperfections of nature for the sake of divine perfections. Consequently, every perfect person, every illumined, heavenly individual stands in the station of sacrifice. It is my hope that through the assistance and providence of God and through the bounties of the Kingdom of Abha you may be entirely severed from the imperfections of the world of nature, purified from selfish, human desires, receiving life from the Kingdom of Abha and attaining heavenly graces. May the divine light become manifest upon your faces, the fragrances of holiness refresh your nostrils and the breath of the Holy Spirit quicken you with eternal life.

A Few Realizations

One of them is:

Remember how a while ago I said something like “don’t judge me but i watch terrible tv shows to get away from my anxiety”

remember that? yeah, not the best idea.

I’ve found a new, more productive way of not having anxiety, and watching bad tv shows just makes my anxiety worse in the long run.


So, I’ve realized that I can do other things! Yay!! 😀

And I’m not beating myself up over it, but realizing that I’ve realized a new realization. Ya dig?


As always –


Flickering Candles.

Vancouver Youth Conference


This conference exceeds words, this conference was an ocean of learning.

Beautiful souls, all of them. Whether we were on good terms or not, such beautiful souls.

This will turn up right. We have a new world order. We are creating; building, a new world order.

The Mayan calendar wasn’t being literal 😉

You know, I used to think “Why didn’t Baha’u’llah put me with other youth, as I know I have friends in other clusters.”

I think I’m starting to realize why, a few reasons too.

Things have to change, sacrifice is required. Love and growth are required.


We can be strong, we can do this. Together.

Love always,

Flickering Candles

1 July 2013

Hello all 🙂

I am currently breaking down the message from The House. Which consists of writing one paragraph per page and defining words that I don’t understand or words we should go over, and occasionally writing questions to go with each paragraph to help us delve deeper.

I’m hoping that when my relatives come back from vacation they’ll go through it with me, to help each other grow and get ready for the up-coming conference. Whoo!!

So far, so good 🙂

I hope everyone is doing well.



Flickering Candles

P.s. I’m finding the error of my ways. I’m working on fixing them.

I Refuse To Feel Sorry For Myself

It is not productive and not helpful.

I am a human being. Which means that I have shortcomings, but something stronger than that, that I have, is faith and hope. Faith in Him that I will be better today than I was yesterday,
and hope that I will keep working on myself until my last breath. And even after that.

Because even as my actions define me, I can choose to re-define myself and transform into something better. This time and this place is in constant motion,
it is always changing and evolving, just as I am and just as we all are. We all learn and will continue to do so, whether we like it or not. I am bigger than what I see myself as.

Each day is a new chance, and I will make the change. I am stronger than this, or any mental illness that can come my way because I will not let it be an excuse for not trying.

As always, He is love. And love can surpass anything.

I’m not going to blame other people for my problems.

I’m not going to be rude.

I’m going to be a better person, and take responsibility for my actions.

I will be kind, and generous, and helpful, and patient, and open, and loyal. And understanding, and truthful.

I will be this person and more.

I will be happy and make others happy while doing so.

I will be full of joy. I will be an ocean of joy and happiness.

First I’ll need to start out as a trickle, and then a stream, and then a river, but I will make it.

I don’t have to impress anyone.

I will strive to impress God, and by doing that I will impress myself.

Because we will make a change, and it will hurt, but it will be done, and we will be better for it and because of it.

Peace to you,

Flickering Candles